update

Well!

A little update to my online friends here.

I came home, from 20 odd days in the field. Last haul was rough on my system. Picking up and dropping down; just a mess of emotinoal crap that I'm trying to deal with.

Was in town for all of 4 days. I was anticipating a month off; and I got 4 days.

Which i spent avoiding like everything and everyone.

It was sorta nice.

But a headache. I had developed so much out in the field, my sensitivity to others thoughts and presence that I had a splitting headache coming back into town. It was just all the pressure of everything around me. Everyone in my space.

I felt I was going crazy.

Which I guess isn't good.

No biggie though.

So I went out of town to work some more.

Had a psychic visitor and just couldn't hold anything in my system for the next 3 days.

Wasn't really good.

I made some choices and some more changes; and now I'm doing alright.

On the path to recovery and all that.

More things happened; alot of craziness too... I'll post as I can.

Directional Influence

So my directional hand has decided that I sound just like that kid from home alone.

that if he didn't look at me, he's swear Mcaully Caulkin is sitting right beside him.

Jerk.

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The day DD is always playing these online slot machines. And every day he wins 1000 or so off of them, just sitting back with this old guy smile on his face.

He got the night guy setup with an account and they were playing last evening.

So me, being the dumbass I am; signed up myself.

My dd and I were up all night gambling at work.

It struck me this morning that it may not be such a good idea to make it so convienient to loose money. That the reason why i like to go to the casino is because its a rare treat. But online; I just need to click a few times and here I am.

Grrr

Here you go guys!

This is like all about freedom of speach and all that.

"Allen Lee, an 18-year-old straight-A student at Cary-Grove High School, was arrested Tuesday near his home and charged with disorderly conduct for an essay police described as violently disturbing but not directed toward any specific person or location."

(http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/local/chi-070425essay,1,696682.story?ctrack=1&cset=true)

Two daily thoughts.

Living is...

Waking up with a smile on your face. If you don't smile when you wake up in the morning, your not truely alive.

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Religion...

When we constrain things to our words and thoughts, we limit their power in our world. Saying things like "god loves"; the word love is something we define and prove in our world. Applying that to god, we create an imaginary prison for Him and His power.

Setup

I guess its a sign that I'm a pretty decent guy when my directional driller makes an offer to set me up with his neice.

Shredded Potatoes

Okk... so today's operation - Shredded hash browns.

I Shredded a potato. Fried it; and they shreds started clumping. So I ate that one up found out that it wasn't quite cooked. So I used more oil. Fried another. Too much oil. Threw that one out. Fried up some more and it was cooked but just not up to par.

So I asked for help.

Here's the answer.

Wash and peel some potatoes. You can cut or box grater them (use the large holes) or shred them how you feel. If your using starchy potatoes (like bakers and waxy potatoes) you may want to rinse some of the starch off the shreds. Other wise they'll clump when you fry them.

We have a few options here.

#1) Blanch the potatoes, let them set and dry before frying them (blanch = quick boil... drop in hot hot salty water for a few minutes, pull out.).

Fry and your good. Blanched potatoes will fry up with a nicer crispiness and color and be fully cooked in the middle compared with only frying them.

Salt and pepper and your done.

#2) Fry the potatoes; pull out when they're browned and put into your oven @ 350F for 5-10 minutes.

Get a frying pan hot with a little bit of oil. add in your potato; a little salt and pepper. Flip it once or twice and your done.

S&P and life is good.

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So yeah!

Other than that, I was thinking about browning some onions first and maybe throwing in a little fine diced green/red pepper with the potatoes as they're hitting the fry pan.

Today's operation - shredded hash browns... 3 potato's down... 1 more to go.

Horray!

First of all; way to go Ottawa for beating Pitsburg hard in their first playoff game.

Seccond, I'm very tired. I went to bed last night at 10ish (got caught in a book) and was woken up at 2am when things started going wrong and we began pulling out of hole.

Similar deal for the night before - late to bed and early to rise.

Grrr.

Looking forward to a day off. Wich will come sooner or later I'm sure. I just got a call from my former trainee; he was just checking out if he's coming back and wanted to let me know that he's requesting me again because he has so many questions about our equipment that are still unanswered.

The office have installed GPS units in all of our trucks. With a nice little beeping unit that lets us know if we're speeding or forgot our seatbelt, accelerate or brake too quickly.

Which is really nice. Thanks guys for the little reminders.

Unfortunately, today they released a policy that all these bad things count for 'points' which are tallied up and specific ranges get colors assigned to them.

If you fall in the 'red' category, your fired.

Funny enough, at the beginning of march, I had a bad feeling and drastically changed my truck driving mentality.

The memo that was released today had a half dozen examples of people in a spreadsheet... but who ever grey'd out the names was an idiot and with some careful negotiation of my monitor, I could make out who they were.

Looks like in the month of march, I accured 120 points... which qualifies for a green rating. Three (out of the 8) qualified for red ratings...

So I'm in sorta a good mood about that.

Good thing I have a car to do all my speeding in when I'm home.

Holographics

Ok; I'm not sure if I've posted on this before... so figured to give it a minute of my time.

It has often been my observation that the smallest habit of a person has a way to completely represent their entire being.

I guess this is called a holographic representation or really, a fractal.

As I've mentioned before, if you cut a small piece of a hologram off and looked at it, it would be an itty bitty complete picture. Exactly like its origin, only smaller.

So you take a person and how they treat a small puppy. Either loving it or disliking it. How they talk, how they react to whatever it does.

In my opinion, this represents so much in their life. That it can't be confined to how they only treat dogs; but to an effect, how they would treat children and maybe how they treat a playful nature of them self.

I understand this is a crap example; but its also a difficult concept and I'm out of creativity for the evening.

Layers of actualization

I was talking with a friend a while ago. We were discussing impliecations of healing. About applying energy to a thought to encourage its manefestation.

I brought up something along this tocpic and she used the word "Believe". Something like "I believe in my ability".

Which I immediately jumped upon.

In my mind, there are a few layers of truth.

In the positive column, there is Thought - I think its true; Belief - I believe its true; and Truth - I know its true.

Its a very hard point to convey... the difference between belief and absolution.

That belief is something a person brings up and discusses because it may be incorrect, yet they're ready to prove that is their perspective is the most valid.

Truth... is assumed. Its the one thing that people don't discuss because its beyond question.

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Which is why people have problems with "reality".

Some times things we take for fact are actually less than belief's. They're mere thoughts that no body questions.

All of a sudden we have all sorts of rules, regulations and limitations that only exist inside our mind.

Impressions

I was chatting with a friend online today and it dawned me how much of who I think I am is based on input from others.

I'd spent a good and long time attempting to proof my physical condition against what others say; but it looks like my personality is still not entirely under my control.

If your bored; and maybe half of you are; take the time to reflect on what others think and say about you.

Then apply this to now, how you act and behave and contemplate wether how you act now is a product of what they say or if what they say is a product of how you act.

Remote Viewing

Okk... so I'm very sure that some of my newer readers and friends are going to read this and sorta look askince at me.

Tough. *smile*

Last night, just before morning... I sat in the perfect state of Zen.

I'm trying to figure something out; so I sat in a web of thought for at least an hour. As I drifted deeper into meditation and farther from concious... I had a thought.

I was curious about something, so I followed my thought to have a peek at my house. My beautiful car and the garage.

It was time to get up.

And sitting there putting on my socks, it dawned on me. I just did my first un-aided Remote Viewing.

Mentos

Okk... so another blog post on mentos and diet coke I've read...

My shopping list? Mentos and Diet coke.

Came back to the rig; was going to drink the Coke; but remembered how much I dislike pop now.

So I grabbed them and went out back. Slipped 3 mentos into the coke before the whole thing started pouring coke all over the place.

I covered it with my palm until I couldn't hold back the pressure, let it go and 3/4 of the coke sprayed out the neck onto the ground.

1 liter of coke with 3 mentos almost emptied the bottle.

Next time, I'll have an assistant will drop a few mentos in and lid it up. I'm very sure we can explode a bottle.

Zero investment

Here's a thought.

I was watching a presentation on human interaction. The guy who was doing the presentation talked about commitment into a situation/interaction.

Said that people who have invested in something see more value in it and are likely to stay with it for better or worse than those who don't commit to it but can see a higher gain.

He used a lot of metaphors which were all wonderful. I dilute the message because I don't want to copy his material. Just mention is and sorta off-shoot.

So here's a proposal.

Yeah, invest in things. Invest largely in things. But don't look on a long term return, look at what you get instantly and count everything else a bonus.

That you invest money into going out with a person. Invest energy into making her/him/them smile. Invest emotion into making everything perfect.

What can you expect out of this?

Now.

Thats the only thing thats real.

Now.

Not that later is any less real. Not that you can't plant a seed and watch it grow, take care of it and water it; enjoying the fruit it finally produces.

But look at what you get from it.

The planting isn't the investment and the fruit isn't the return.

The planting is its own reward. The watering its own reward.

Every moment your creating your own mental status and situation.

Take pleasure in taking care of the tree. Not to see it grow, but because the moments you take to water it and care for it, as you give it your own energy, you gain equally. True, the longer you care for something... a residue will develop. Increasing gains from the same effort.

Ultimately, modeling after this mindset, your not "committed" to anything. Your not "owed" anything from your initial investment of time.

Its already been paid back.

Your ... free.

Investment

Why are we here?

Its strange, books like the Celistine prophesy say that we're here to share an experience, once we finish feeling what we're here to feel, once we learn what we need to learn, we leave.

We cross that threshold and become pure and perfect.

What is real?

Nothing is. Only 'us'. 'I'.

We all have seen "the Secret". "what the bleep do we know" and other movies like this. All read books that tell us what we call reality is a mirror of truth which we create in our minds. That we can have anything we want, we just need to summon it in our minds.

This is even supported by Christianity's "just ask god" ideal which you hear over and over again.

So why would we spend our whole lives following the walls in our little rat race?

Funny story; the more we 'invest' in this rat race, the more we solidify our existance here and now... the higher the walls become, the harder it is to acknowledge other existances and realities exist.

Letting go.

This is going to be a long one... so please, grab a bag of popcorn. *smile* And its going to be in multiple parts... because I'm not done meditating this one out.

Commitment.

If I have a major thing that I coach people through, its men and commitment. Taking a friend and helping them deal with making a choice and sticking to it.

Typically in a relationship sense, its true... but commitment in general.

Men are afraid of holding on.

But whats the deal?

Until you sign the papers, you haven't bought the house... you know?

So what makes tomorrow more scary than today?

That's what baffles me. And what i help others work through.

No matter what, we are in charge of our futures. We are in control (no matter how hard we tell ourselves we're not) of what happens to us and what we do.

And there is nothing wrong with changing your mind either.

So your in a relationship. You get closer to the girl, she moves in maybe. Or you share love; express feelings and emotion.

Today, vs. tomorrow... if your enjoying yourself; love being with that person and can't imagine being with any one else... but you don't think your ready for commitment... its no big deal.

Don't get upset and excited. Continue to enjoy yourself. Be open and honest with your partner for sure, but be honest with yourself most of all.

Don't be afraid of loosing yourself. Don't be afraid of becoming someone else or trying something differently.

Why? because you can always come back to being who you were before.

There is nothing you can do that you can't undo. And you have to understand that. Commitment is like passing a 'point of no return'... except as perfect beings... there is nothing we can't be, nothing we can't do, nothing we can't undo.

We have no 'point of no return'. Its always intention based, always feeling and thought based. Happiness is a reference point we hold in our mind... something we create because of our obsessively compiling and labeling nature.

Tingle

Some days, my fingers tingle... my skin is expectant with energy. Everything I touch tells me its story through feeling alone.

Bored

I was bored. Oh so bored.

Which is the essence of awesome.

When I'm bored; I start doing 'funny' things. ('funny' usually means stupid and slightly dangerous)

Fortunately, the office figured to break up my boredom by sending me a very not-strong 2nd hand to train up. Yay!

So here is a photo of me doing what I do best. Something questionably stupid and moderately dangerous.

Thats right, I'm balancing on a weight doing bicep curls.

You would think this an ordinary thing... but the weight on the bottom doesn't have a flat edge. I actually fell over like 3 times trying to get this picture.

Use your imagination please

April showers

Okk...

The best joke ever.

If april showers bring may flowers... what do may flowers bring?

Pilgrims.

Trainee's

Alright, this is awesome!

My trainee doesn't speak much english... and he messed up really good.

He didn't send in some safety stuff from the last quarter...

If you have it sent out, you get a $25 bonus per day you've worked. Which works out to about $1000.

Which is hilarious for me. He's like "I didn't send out some safety stuff..." and I got to break it to him... that it doesn't upset me, only that he isn't elegable for his thousand dollar bonus.

He was in shock... took it in stride with a pretty nice smile... saying that he doesn't really need the thousand dollars, but maybe it would be useful for pocket change or something to pickup a cart at the grocery store.

It was awesome! I was looking to hurt someone's feelings tonight, and sure as shit a wicked oppourtunity just appeared for me!

Yay!