Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Horray! I still have A reader! WOOO!

Fated said...
Yay! A new post. Sounds like an interesting life you've had lately. Hope you love the new york job!

Well holy crap!

I figured everyone had packed their bags and gone home; leaving this blog in the dust of their passing.

Things are slowly starting to settle down as I pack up my baggage (emotionally) and prepare to leave some of it behind.

Speaking about which; I havn't left yet. *sigh* but looks like my next benchmark is the 29th, and if that fails; going to a sask. job on the 4th.

I'll know more tomorrow.

etc etc.

So yeah!

I was at the office today; played hackisack in the bay for an hour with some of the department managers. It was killer fun.

Unfortunately, it was just like school... but instead of the principal; it was my bosses boss walking by every 20 minutes giving us a frown or dissaproving eye.

Maybe not the best thing to do; but he said at this morning's meeting that we're supposed to make the best friends with today's co-workers, as they'll be tomorrow's bosses.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

A little update on whats going on!

Hey team!

Its been a while.

I've been working pretty lax, pretty much 10 days a month over june and may. Which is nice; but I'm about ready to take a break from being here (aka - looking for a 30+ day job to escape to)

During May, i was fighting the women off with a stick. Even managed to pickup a beautiful girl at the bar; fought through her fat blocker and a jelous ex-boyfriend bouncer to grab her number. Which was awesome.

Unfortunately; she turned out to be a bitch; pissed me off on date 3, so date 4 I spent the entire time pressing her buttons.

I text messaged her that I was leaving for a month; she text messaged me that it was over between the two of us.

Pretty tidy conclusion if you ask me.

So far in June I havn't chased anything. I've had a few oppourtunities; but literally no desire.

Been 'seeing' this girl. She's living with her "ex-boyfriend" in a 1 bedroom appartment; and I guess the words 'break up' are open for interpretation. (aka - when he calls and she's with me, she claims to be at her parents house)

Which is all cool; I have no problem helping a girl out on the side like this. The only thing that gets me (and son of a bitch does it bother me) is her energetic availability for me.

I can't get it up unless a person desires me both physically and energetically. But as she's already being provided for on that front; there is almost no sexual desire on my side. I mean... I can feel this friggain wall in her head. When it starts to crumble (or she forgets about it) I start getting turned on. No matter what the context. It comes back up; I'm literally an emotion less being. Just a body. With a damn headache from the energetic impass.

Which is ... upsetting... to say the least. I'm a Scorpio. Its what we do. Not only are we know as born manipulators; we are the passion sign.

So; let me summarize this better... There is this amazing girl who wants me physically which I'm sliding into the "friends" category.

What a piss off.

There's so much more... but I don't have a lot of writing in my left.

I should be gong to new york (state) by the end of this month (horray!) for a permanent assignment. Looks like 20-30 days on and 10 days off.

Went canoeing yesterday. It was actually pretty awesome. That Canoe thing I posted about; thats what i ended up doing. The river was going quite fast; and we were a little competative; so we just burned through the thing in 4(ish) hours. (which is enough to tire a person out; judging by my condition today) But then again; there were a few parts where we just drifted down; and some other parts where we hauled ass and went for speed. We finished first out of all the other canoe's going (which is awesome) by about 20 minutes.

So yeah; I'll try to keep in touch; but no promises. I've been sorta avoiding everyone and hiding out for a bit; trying to just chill out... which I guess includes my blog.

Later!

Monday, June 11, 2007

The mountains - day 1

So I wanted to get away from the city. There was a blue moon coming up and I wanted something special to enjoy the moment.

I called up Ninja Instructor Curtis; who lives in southern BC in the rockies there, I arranged to visit him for a few days of vacation fun.

Made some stops on the way down... did a quick 2 hour visit to the hot springs for a swim and a massage; stopped at this little silver smith store that was in the middle of no where.

Ended up at Curts house around 9pm (after driving since 7am makes for a long day) and we chilled for the night.

"morning" came around (like noon) and we sorts toured around the area, showing me the spots. I had a crazy sushi craving; so we hitup this place called 'chopstics'. I ordered a massive plate of food and a half order of like raw salmon chunks (which I ate with relish - though I can't stand fish... isn't that strange?) We stopped at one of several dams for some sight seeing; they were spilling 2 1/2 gates of water; the froth and foam at the bottom looked like the softest pillow... Though if you put it in perspective; the swells were 14 feet high and could easily swallow a car without a trace.
So we got back to his place, had a little Vegan snack changed our clothes and prepped for a day hike.

Showed up at the bottom of this mountain trail. It was +35 outside (ish... every time I tell this story the temp ranges from +38 to +35 celcius) and the lake beside the trail was still half covered with ice.

Turning to the trail; we were a little dismayed to see about 6-7 feet of snow, all the way up the mountain.






If you notice the almost vertical clean lines in the snow; thats where I jogged up and around, sliding back down. It was sure enough footing to walk on. You just had to keep light thoughts.
Thats the back of curts head on the right hand side of the pic there. He's not overly happy to be climbing in snow, but we figured the worst thing that could happen was we'd get half way and have to stop.

We climbed up the hill... from snow to rocks and back again. A few times we almost twisted things or fell; but were there to catch one another. Funny enough; the snow had melted around the trees and rocks; so if there was a tree limb under the snow from a tree above it, the heat form the sun would pass through and ultra soften the snow around the tree limb; causing us to slip or almost dissapear in the snow several times.

This pic here; its just a hole in the snow. Curt was high centered... aka - his leg was all the way in the snow up to his groin, his other foot was somehow positioned on the rock beside the hole; it was sorta funny, hearing him yelp... and then with amazement say "I'm not even touching the bottom"




Hiked up a ways more, a few hours into the hike at least, walking beside these bamboo poles which had what looked like rope or wire coming out of the top of them and running up the mountain. We sorta followed our own path and ran into this little barrel station and a sign. The sign said something along the lines of "caution avalanches may be triggered at any time, don't be here cause its dangerous". Using a little brain power, we realised that these poles were sticks to place and mark charges below the snow which could remotly be set off causing an avalanch. Who knew?
Um... photo time... This pic here is where we climbed up. See the snow and trees and stuff?

This ridge we're on shooting the picture, its the top ridge in the next picture. This is about half way.






This is... a mountain.

I don't have much more creative things to say, i just wanted to show a few more pics on where things were for perspective's sake.

As mentioned above; this view obscures the actual mountain top, which is another good bit above this.


So we got to the top of the mountain and waited around somewhat for the sun to set and the moon to rise. Of course, you have 2 men with camera's on top of a mountain, they're gonna try doing stupid things and getting photo's of them.

Here's my favorite pic. I'm doing ... something; I think its called a valdez from breakdancing.


Here's a picture of the sun setting over the mountains. It was actually pretty nice.


And here's a pic of the blue moon rising on the opposite side. We actually took like 20 pictures and a few videos, trying to get 1 in focus shot of the moon (as none of us had brought mini tripods or anything).


So after we finished playing on the top of the mountain, we started hiking down... in the dark. Which actually was pretty awesome. The snow, which had softened from the day's heat, got a bunch harder... but was more precarious footing. Until we figued that we could just slide down the whole damn mountain.
Which we did.
There was one or two times where one of us got out of control and couldn't stop (without running into something) and the other grabbed hold of the victum and stopped his downward rush; but other than that, very uneventful.
I do have to say though; sliding down a tree covered mountain in the dark gave me a much greater high than skydiving the few weekends back.
After we got to the bottom and found a 30 foot drop to the highway, we sorta figured that we descended on the wrong side of the mountain. Had to half climb up it again to skirt around to where we were parked.

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Sunday, June 10, 2007

Anger

Oh sweet release into the land of the angry.

Screw earth its dormant and slow changing ways. Not being a part of any of the moving elements is driving me up the wall. The earth, is something so very abstract and different from what I am; i feel... weak being like this.

The love I used to share with my close friends and companions has all but dried up. Looking to tap this endless source I could feel inside me.

Instead of the rushing river of feeling and caring I usually pull from; all I feel is ground beneath my feet.

*smile* you see how this can be frustrating?

Most days, it doesn't feel like I have enough for myself, never mind others.

So I was sitting here; thirsty for what i once knew and some very wonderful person provided the fuel and catalyst for a nice angry fire behind my eyes.

That should provide sustenance for another day or so; one more day to learn how to adapt.

Friday, June 08, 2007

Strange concepts

I was talking with a stranger/friend the other night. She was having problems and wanted to discuss them with someone who didn't know (and thus couldn't gossip with) any of her friends/family.

So I showed up. Tadaa!

And it was blatantly shoved into my face that the idea of worrying abuot people or things is almost a concept that I don't understand any more.

Its strange; I care and love people... but worrying about their future is just something I don't think is in my thought process. Worrying about my future neither.

Worry; to me; is a lack of trust in a person's ability to handle. That unless its a pre-curser to action is wasted... and it just sorta got left by the roadside.

I was chatting with another friend tonight; talked about her boyfriend being mad at her. And it struck me; pretty good and solid; that I don't remember the last time I've been mad at a person neither.

That I get mad at circumstance that makes them act how they act, and I remember it from my far far distant past...

Its just strange; a concept that was a part of my life has become completely unknown.

It makes me wonder about what else I've forgotten which was once common place.

Prairie's

Ok... I've been trying to summon the energy to write on here for some time.

And I've had so many adventures to detial; thoughts to share and all that.

But when I start; I get 2-3 lines through and can't seem to punch out any more.

Whats going on now?

I just stood outside my rig and looked at the beautiful Albertan prairie. Watching the grass blow in the wind.

Nothing more beautiful than seeing something that just screams "home".

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