and sometimes you see it coming from a long ways away

I'm talking with this ultra nice girl; such a beautiful person.

(yeah, I'm still internet dating... its just so addictive)

So delicate... I can feel her moving closer, making assumptions about who I am; what I do and how I do it... stuff like that.

The worst thing is; I'm going to meet her, let her get close so I can see for myself who she thinks I am.

Perhaps its sadistic. This level of self verification. Looking through someone elses eyes for justification that I'm actually a person.

Or maybe its with hope that she (among all the others) could possibly have a damn clue what makes me tick. (um... unlikely in this case)

I'm curious if I'm going to get hurt by this one. Trying to expose myself to these girls... true I learn soo much about who I am by what I say and do... but in the path of being honest I become so damn vulnerable.

Always an adventure.