Reading

Its funny; for myself reading is a sort of meditation. Something to busy my rational mind leaving my sub concious and whats left to wander and play.

And today while reading I came to a memory; a decision and a reading. Very nicely put together too.

I know I'm being used by someone getting inclose to my heart. That the ninja saying goes "only teach half of what you know, and always be able to kill your students". And what I'm to do about it.

Budgie; the fact that my friends don't know I'm crazy is an advantage; I'd think.

That way when I actually do something off the wall its still a suprise. Or when they're expecting that, I can react normally... and catch them off guard.

noticed something...

So its strange; It is now a very common occourance for someone to say "I worry about you".

I know; and love my friends that do it. I really appreciate the thoughts.

But when people you've met once (and chatted with briefly online) start to say that... maybe there actually is something to be worried about.

I'm not sure. Living as best I can, and actually enjoying life. Just feeling like I'm in my place... ya know? pushing my boundries on a daily basis; exploring who it is I am; and not doing too bad financially to boot...

*smile* maybe they just think I'm crazy!

a memory

I remember my first... emotion felt for another person.

Strangely enough; it was for mike mires on SNL one night. I think I was pretty young... somewhere in the early double digits anyways.

The skit was Mike and someone else were college students, living on Kraft Dinner and Ketchup. One turned to the other and was like "we don't have enough money to buy Kraft dinner or ketchup any longer"

and this guy knocked on the door... was like "you guys have eaten the most Kraft Dinner out of anyone in America... you win a free life supply of KD"... and the door knocked again... "you guys have eaten the most ketchup out of anyone else in America... you win a free life supply of Ketchup."

And I didn't know what to think / do. it was Very strange... as a child feeling something for the KD/Ketchup guys. Like a hopless happiness or something; feeling for those guys.

I am well!

So yeah; had a little time at home; which was rather nice.

Managed to see some friends, kiss some babies and shake some hands.

Walked in on a "creating better relationships" lecture; was great. I actually have learned alot of things from it.

The most suprising, is that when you look up, you get forced into a visual form of communication.

Funny enough; all meditation experts reccomend you look "up to your thrid eye" while attempting to picture something. Which of course activates the magic part of your brain designed to do that.

lol! and here comes the science!

So yeah. All is well for me; I'll keep you all posted. Now that I'm at work (instead of at home) I have regular internet access again.

Fire! Fire!

so... funny enough... two rigs just south of our position were evacuated; apperently there are 10,000 hectairs of burning trees between 60 and 120 kms south of our rig.

I've got a bad feeling... just a lil' something in the air.

The air is smoggy and smells like my folks fireplace when I was a kid.

Its kinda nice; but weird.

you can feel the power in the air. I think i'm gonna go sit in the rain for a bit.

and work

Yeah; so works been fun.

Never mind the little bits and pieces in the past postings; figured that I would write a summary of all the fun I've been having lately.

So; beginning of last job, I was sent out on my own. To run my own job! Finally. They gave me a trainee... someone very less experianced to learn about what we're all doing out here.

Show up on site, set up and run the job. Start to finish a 26 day stint sharing a very confined space with another crazy. Drive to town, move all my stuff into the new house; see a friend. Then drive back.

Meet the same guy back here; but this time we don't have a Directional Driller helping us on the vertical part of our well.

So... TADAA! I get to do that part now.

Get my seccond hand (he's not really a trainee anymore) to rig up one job while I take care of the other. Ended up working through the night; picking tools up in the early morning.

Sleep was few and far between. After 48 hours of alertness, i managed to sneek in a 15 minute nap. And then another 24 hours before sleeping for a half hour.

Drilled for another day or so and some guys came off of another rig to relieve me for a bit. Ended up sleeping for a whole 3 hours!

But whatever. Got through that just fine. Managed to not screw things up too badly.

Drilled for another week and a half; everything aproaching normal again. I gotta say though; your sleep batteries never really fully recharge out here. Its that nights sleep in your own house, in your own bed that the body craves.

So when (2 nights ago) I'd been asleep for an hour and the tool completely stopped working; I wasn't in a good case to work through the night and through the next day again.

*smile*

But whatever. I guess its a "do the best you can" situation.

So yeah; thats the last month and a half.