A broken link

Strange... I've had a very deep link with a close friend for a very long time now.

I felt it being severed this morning.

I hate that feeling.

I hate doing it to others; I hate doing it to myself (both of which has happened a remarkable many times).

I've been very low all day. Feeling so down and tired; sad. Like a cornered animal looking at the door of freedom and not knowing what to do.

Just feeling the pure rush of energy... not having it being borrowed from from the source.

Very strange. To feel so good and bad at the same time.